我終於出關！閉關咗好耐去study and then found out it was a complete waste of my time. 早知去玩&訓覺好過.
I have been saying a lot of "I'm too old for this" lately. I'm too old for this work crap I'm too old to live with my parents I'm too old to be doing this casual dating I'm too old ... turning the big 3O really is a big thing for a girl after all. Even gaining weight seems so much more difficult than when I was younger. (yes, I did not type wrong. gain not lose). I want to put on a few pounds but it is not happening. I lost 8 pounds from pneumonia and I never got them back. And the pneumonia was in May!! I'm starting to think there is something wrong with me.
Since I realized I'm too old for all those things and of course I'm too old to be sitting around and do nothing about them. I put all my energy towards fixing all those things. I started to write all these exams in hopes of rescuing myself from this job that I really hate (because no one is going to rescue me!) to find out they are not hiring or they already had someone in mind (hence the waste of my time). I started looking at apartments actively but it is going to take a long time before I can find something I like. It is close to impossible to find an apartment that fits my criteria in Richmond (my mom is not going to let me leave Richmond). In the end, there is only one building that I like. Oh well... it is better not to rush into decisions anyway so I will just wait patiently for my 2 bedroom, higher level, "non West" exposure unit to come up. In terms of relationship(s), it is going to take an even longer time to fix or to find out what there is to fix and let's just leave it at that.
In spite of all the above that I look forward to fixing, there is this one thing that I certainly look forward to and it is coming up soon!! One more month until my vacation!! Woohooo! This time, I'll be going to Seoul and Taipei (as well as HK to redeem myself from the embarrassment 2 years ago). I'm so happy that I can stay away from work for a month! 真係訓覺都笑醒! LOL
Oh yeah, I forgot I mentioned about posting some of my good finds in Chinese music in my previous post.
ever since i started working at a plant again, I got myself a mp3 player to pass time. of course the first thing I did was to add the music files that I like to the device. however, after a month or so, I grew tired of those songs (who wouldn't when u listen to them for 6+ hrs per day). Just when I was wondering what new stuff I could listen to (I may have mentioned I haven't been listening to any chinese music in years). 有心人 immediately mailed over two flash drives with basically all his chinese music collection. But because the list was too overwhelming, I didn't start listening until last week. I was happy to discover (or re-discover) some hidden gems. I thought I might share a couple with you guys.
突然記起點解喜歡五月天 (Mayday),從十年前的"志明與春嬌＂/"Peter and Mary" 已覺得五月天的音樂十分出色... I really like Ah Shin's music and lyrics. He is so talented, justlike Wong Ka Kui of Beyond...(it takes forever for iPhone to write chinese so I am switching back to english :P). Hope you guys like this and I will post a couple more next time :)
p.s. I know it sounds strange that I listen to music all day at work but I work in an environment where I have to wear a ton of protective gear including a hard hat with ear protection. I pretty much talk to no one the entire day so this is how I make time go slightly faster. Don't worry, your health is not compromised in any way. Your food is still safe to eat. =P
last month, the government gave me a gift of gratitude - a Tim Horten's gift card.
today, I happened to stop by a Tim's and I went in and got myself a medium coffee and a donut. the total came out to be $2.31. I gave the girl the gift card and she said,
好像這些年來, 冇 achieve 到任何事. career, health, relationship... 一切好似好順利時,就要 back to square one. 以前好有理想,現在係一堆blur and nothing is right. 好在我算係樂觀人, 如果唔係, 我一早已經去跳樓...
I am going to fix the wrongs one at a time, starting with career. even if I cannot find a job that I like right now, at least I will have to find ways to make myself enjoy it a little bit more.
