first post of 2009
Thursday, January 08, 2009
the snow is pretty much all gone. what's left now is the dirty, greyish ice/slush/salt + puddles of water.
life goes on... even though i feel crappy. what bothers me most now is still the side effects. there isn't a moment when i feel completely "pain-free". the pain varies in intensity from headaches, to muscle cramps, to joint pain. but i realize i can handle pain pretty well. it's the other side effects that i find it harder to accept - such as thinning of hair and turning chubby. u can say i am shallow but it's true because everyone can see it and it affects me emotionally as well. even though i know this is only temporary (for the chubby part, at least), but for the next few months, i am going to feel slightly more depressed than i originally was. i promise i will try to keep up my positive self. trust me, i am still happy and feel blessed every single day but there are moments of the day i do feel like crap just like everyone else.
anyway, another year has gone by. i have gone through a lot of change last year and i have watched my friends went through a ton of changes too. both good and bad. May 2009 be a year with much much more of the good than the bad.
life goes on... even though i feel crappy. what bothers me most now is still the side effects. there isn't a moment when i feel completely "pain-free". the pain varies in intensity from headaches, to muscle cramps, to joint pain. but i realize i can handle pain pretty well. it's the other side effects that i find it harder to accept - such as thinning of hair and turning chubby. u can say i am shallow but it's true because everyone can see it and it affects me emotionally as well. even though i know this is only temporary (for the chubby part, at least), but for the next few months, i am going to feel slightly more depressed than i originally was. i promise i will try to keep up my positive self. trust me, i am still happy and feel blessed every single day but there are moments of the day i do feel like crap just like everyone else.
anyway, another year has gone by. i have gone through a lot of change last year and i have watched my friends went through a ton of changes too. both good and bad. May 2009 be a year with much much more of the good than the bad.
This entry was posted
on Thursday, January 08, 2009 at 8:37 PM.
You can skip to the end and leave a response.
