My Corner

if you simply don't understand, there is no point in me explaining myself.

certain ppl don't realize they have smoother lives and are fortunate not to have gone through disastrous events in life.

i am not saying i am unfortunate but i have a slightly bumpy life so far. there are still plenty of things going on around me that troubles me and making my life harder. when i talk to you about them, it is not a form of complain or being pessimistic. not everything is as easy as you seem. i am not complicating things up but things are complicated. i do want a simple life but then situations come up and complicate things. there is not always a definite single answer to each of the issue going on. there are always mixed feelings involved which is why i do contradict myself sometimes and i am aware of that. i am only saying not everything has a yes or no answer. i don't exactly know what i want yet but what is wrong with avoiding doing things i don't like? i do have an idea of what i want so what is wrong with pursuing in that direction? for someone to step in and tell me i am close minded and not explore other options is wrong. what do you know?

i do not need a lecture on how i should cheer up and be more positive because i already am. do not tell me things will be ok in the end because i know that also. everyone who knows me well knows that i am a tough person and i am not going to let someone beat me down by some ignorant comments. so i have made up my mind, i am done talking about my personal issues. since we are of different levels and you are not there yet, let's not waste your time and mine.

i do not envy you because i know i am stronger than you are. i am proud of my past experiences. i will continue to listen and give advise to your childish complaints though.

i know i am complaining here myself. i blame the prednisone for making me moody.